Stab Me With Your Knife

We juz lost another one good leader
How I wish I cud stop him to go
However I will be shellfish enough to stop his dream
I guess we shud all let him go
encourage him to go and not to make him at guilt of leaving us
It is very painful
the same way as Keith felt
But he will be juz fine
Coz we knoe he loves that dream

Good bye Amar....
Realise urself and you realised the world
Keep going on to the right path
That is heading straight in ur dream

SEIZE THE DAY MY FRIEND!
WE WILL ALWAYS BE DERE FOR YOU!

amar ; 5:51 pm

Grandma's has been very sick nowadays...
I am soo worried on her condition
Right up till now, we are doubtful of what she is suffering from
neither do the doctors know

But the most relieving now she was discharged yesterday
guess her condition is not as bad ~ I hope
I can't bare to let her stay alone at home
sorrie members fer not turning up the oath and the dry-run todae
I can't take the risk of going out leaving my grandma alone

So waiting for my brother to reach home, Ridhwan coincidentally called for a jamming session
It's been months since we had our last session
So, finally got that opportunity to go since my brother will be there to take care after her

Get myself relief from the pressure during the jamming session
trying to forget everything by juz letting everything out
But it's not as easy as what I thought

I realise my moodswing is still as same as how I compared to last time
I always thought I was able to control it
At the end, I still realise I can't
Especially when I'm at the boiling point
I can't afford to blow up again
coz I knoe I can't never stop it at all
yeah it end up controlling me instead

I have to figure out away to overcome it
There must be a way
I must do something about it
or I be as good as nothing

:(

; 1:35 am

Finally, I was able to voice out at the right tyme
The atmospere is as quiet as an empty room
everyone look so tensed
when people around you are hurt by the words coming out frm their mouth
which includes myself...

voice-ing out my view on each and everyone of them
espressing my dissatisfaction and frustration towards their doing
I look soo fierce and impulsive
I cant believe I'm showing that to them
That was absolutely not myself

Is it because I'm too furious about it?
Is it because I am juz too emotional and get things too seriously?
I guess so if I'm not wrong.

I hurt alot of people yesterday
I shot them down like a pistol in my hand
They cried of all the things that I said

But it's all in a good intention
Especially to this girl
I juz couldn't see her cried
Each time a tears came out from her eyes, I felt hurt as same as hers
Yesterday I know I hurt her badly
And I'm feeling it either
Sorrie gurl,but I just have to
I do not want people to treat you like a bull with a pierce on its nose
I really care about you
It's just that, I'm scared to let it out my feelings to you
I'm not as other guys whose good at these
Sorrie gurl if I hurt you
I feel so bad and miserable after the incident
I'm sorrie fer hurting you
Sorrie for being so harsh on you
I'm sorrie
Coz I care for you
I'm sorrie
Coz I always like you

I'm sorrie
:... (

; 1:15 pm

Last Wednesdae had myself a game of football at Ang Mo Kio Field nearest to the AMK hub.
However, I am not playing neither as a player nor a goal-keeper
HaHaHa!!!!!!!!
Most probably u guyz wondering wad i play as instead

I was a REFEREE!!!
LOLX!!!

HAHAHAHA!!!
surprisingly...

Yeah, Amirul Ashraf ask my help to do refereeing fer his team match for that day, which brings to me as a new challenge.
I love challengers and why not I give it my 1st try since i do knoe the basic refereeing law.
heeee..

So, reach there at about 4.3opm and get myself prepared fer the match
the most important thing is I have to be neutral as I knoe I can be one-sided since one of the team is my friend.

Soo I did overcome it. Im completely neutral and both of the team are happy at my judgement of the game. Though there is some mistakes here and there. Hehe.. However, they seems to be satisfied at my performance.
Everyone said I did a good job. So I guess I made people happy todae.
hehehe

But seriously speaking, refereeing job is not easy at all. Our eyes is juz have to concentrate on the ball and the defencing line for offside trap.
The pressure will occured when players starts to argue at your decision. even if you are right or you are wrong.

That's the part I got to be firm. Firm of the judgement you have made. Even when your at wrong judgement, to stand up for it and be firm that I am the King and you listen to me as I blow the whistle.
Now I can understand How pressure it feels like when Shamsul Maidin Refereeing the WORLD CUP 2006.
HeHeHe!
XD

Yup indeed this is a day I will remeber at all times.
I have overcome a refeereing job and I am hungry for more when there's another opportunity arrived.
;)

Refereeing Session ; 8:24 pm

Welcome
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Muhammad Adam Arjuna
21 yrs old
23/5/1988
Gemini

Hobbies:-
Outdoor Activities
Facilitators
Helping those in need
Inspire People to be Sombody
Camping
Tracking
Adventuring
Exploring different types of traditional cuisine
Damn it I love FOOD!!!

Big Fan Of:-
Dream Theater
Muse
The Hives
Garbage

Favourite Vocal:-
+ Jimmy Hendrix
+ Eric Martin
+ Steven Tyler
+ Mariah Carey
+ Kelly Clarkson
+ Mig Ayesa

Schools:-
Pertapis Kindergarden Centre - Aljunied (1992-1994)
San Shan Primary School (1995-2000)
Braddell-Westlake Secondary School (2001-2005)
ITE College Central - Bishan Campus (2006-2008)
Temasek Polytechnic - School of Business/Temasek Culinary Academy (2008-present)

Personal Achievements:-
~Secondary~
Track & Field Short-Distant Runner (2001-2003)
Soccer Team (2001-2003)(2004-2005)
Combined School Soccer Centre-of-Excellence Representatives (2001-2003)
~ITE~
Bishan ITE Student Council (2006-2008)
Bishan ITE Student Council Executive Committee (2007-2008)
Soccer - Goal-Keeper (2007-2008)

Favourite Movie:-
Forest Gump
Con Air
The War of The Worlds
The Matrix Trilogy
Home Alone
All Jet Li's Movie

Favourite TV Shows:-
The Amazing Race
Crime Watch
American Idol
Tom & Jerry Show

Favourite Quote:-
SEIZE THE DAY MY FRIEND !!!
Realised yourself and you realised the World
Blink Your Eyes and Your day will come
Respect is Something That You Earn

About Myself:-
Happy-go-Lucky
Loves food and always in a mood of dining experience
Loves Adventuring
Extremely Outgoing
Loves Challenges as it will test his perserverance
Making New Friends
Very Optimistic on his future
Very mischievous
A BIG BIG FAN of DREAM THEATER!!!
SEIZE THE DAY!!!

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